Tuesday, September 30, 2008 @ 21:30
From the first time I saw the city skyline
I was sure I'd be with you
Cause the first time I saw your face
I just fell into you
You say you need to walk on these ideas
Let my heart lay in your past
Why let me walk alone
When I can take you home
Now I'm just sittin' round here
Wonderin' if you even care
Do you even care
Do you even care
Your voice could break the line of silence
And take me from this place
Cause I could love you
If you'd only let a lonely boy have a taste
And I can't wait
And I don't need to walk on these ideas
Since you crossed my path
Why let me walk alone
When I could take you home
I'm just sittin' round here
Wonderin' if you even care
And I didn't ask for solitude
I just wanna be with you
I'm just starin' at these walls
Wonderin' did you even care
Did you even care
Who's that girl I had a thirteen hour conversation with
Where did she go
We were dancin' to Ben Folds Five in your mother's basement
And you kissed me
You kissed me
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this is so frustrating;
just when i thought i would be more carefree after promos
NO! everything else just crops up.
why?! i don't know what to do with them.
i feel so bogged down by what's happening at home; i just dont understand at all.
fine, go all you want. all you care about is yourself, your life. because of us you cant go;
appearance is so important to you; nothing else matters; what is that.!
i would never ever do that to anyone
because of you, thats why i'm like this. i'm so affected by what you've done
and i've no confidence or any self-esteem left,
i'm aware that i'm putting down myself, but i cant help it. it's just that there's no room for that acceptance i need or will ever get.
and why cant you all just listen! its so so so hard on me,
do you know? do you know?
ARGH!!! i want to be a normal teenager.
no one will ever know how it feels like to be me, to be in my position.
why did things turn out this way? was it meant to be? why is it so hard?
i live under this mask. the stronger i look on the outside, the weaker i am on the inside.
